Saturday, May 18, 2013

Anxious | Excited

Hi! Just checkin' in to update you on what's happening during the last couple of days.

I'm still in denial. I know, I know! It sounds really killjoy of me but who can blame me? I really don't feel pregnant at all barring the signs of early pregnancy such as breast tenderness (which has decreased compared to some weeks ago or have I just gotten quite used to it?), frequent peeing (which has increased a whole lot the past couple of days), stomach rumblings, and non-stop hunger pains. I'm also struggling to get into my pants now. My stomach, which is really normally flat, is now protruding very slightly. Now I don't know if that's the baby or just fat because of all the food I eat these days.

I'm not going to lie. There are moments when I don't feel so yey! about this whole pregnancy thing. There are times when I ask myself what I had gotten myself into. There are moments when I begin to worry if I truly deserve to be a steward of GoD's child. I mean, I'm me! I'm certainly not perfect. I certainly don't have it all together. I'm not even a superwoman! But then all these thoughts diminish when I think, who in this world is perfect anyway? Who in this world has it all together? Who in this world is a superwoman? When I think that, I feel all happy and giddy again. Everything is all right in the world again.

I'd like to think that GoD chose us to be His steward for a reason. And right now, I am just so consumed by GoD's love and I thank Him and appreciate Him and praise Him for this great blessing!

On the pregnancy front, I'm 5 weeks yesterday! According to my pregnancy books, yes that's one of the first things I did when I found out I was with child! my little angel now resembles a tadpole and his heart is starting to take shape and is already beating!

I had only planned to buy What to Expect book but
The Everything Pregnancy Book was such a steal at P295! 

I also took further steps to prepare for this pregnancy excited?!. As advised by my sister, I bought a moisturizing stick for my tummy to prevent stretch marks, which is funny because I never thought pregnancy can cause stretch marks! My mom never had 'em and she was pregnant three times! My sister too! But she said she had used a moisturizing stick earlier on in the pregnancy so wala namang mawawala if I do that too diba? So I got this for myself.

The Body Shop Cocoa Butter Moisturising Stick

And because my pants are feeling a little snug, I got myself some new clothes too! I only just planned to buy support leggings honest! but I saw two pretty tops both in navy blue coz dark colors are more slimming and I just can't help myself! And you know what I realised? There are so many types of clothes available for pregnant women these days so there really is no excuse for them to be unfashionable. Some tops can even be used by pregnant and non-pregnant women alike. Really, there are limitless possibilities! Gone are the days of gray, shapeless jumpers and hello colorful, stylish clothing!

So right now all we're waiting for is my first ultrasound, scheduled next week! Mon and I are so excited to see our little angel for the very first time. Wonder what it'll feel like? :)

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